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[Apr. 12th, 2006|08:04 pm] |
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hey everyone, how is life treating everyone? better than mine i hope. mine is pretty shitty right now. school is going. i have to do really good this card marking. i think i can do it!!! my life at home is the worst its ever been. ive fought with my dad and mom and brother and his girlfriend all week and the past weekend. im soooo tired of the bullshit. its crazy. but yah. umm school is school.. ive done my work, hated everyone, and came home to hell. i really just want out.!!! something else i want is a child!! me and michael have talked about it, and i just want it to happen. we have been having unprotexted sex since my incident a few months ago. but yah. i just need a break from life right now!!! next week is spring break! and i need an escape! like a few days gone or something. i talked to my aunt sherry and she helped me get over some problems. she understands me more than anyone, even my friends!! she got engaged and moved out when she was 17-18 and she knows how it is. i think shes going to help me through this next step in my life. my plans for life are, graduate, move, go to college, have children, become rich, live my life confortablly. I cant spell right now either. oh well. how is everyone doing?? |
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| hi all |
[Apr. 2nd, 2006|06:09 pm] |
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HEY EVERYONE, HOW WAS YOUR WEEKEND? MINE WAS EVENTFUL BUT OKAY. I HOPE EVERYONE'S WAS GOOD. ON FRIDAY NIGHT I DIDNT DO MUCH OF ANYTHING. WE ORDERED PIZZA A HUNG OUT. ON SATURDAY ICLEANED AROUND THE HOUSE, THEN I WENT TO PLAY POOL AND OUT TO DINNER WITH MICHAEL. IT WAS VERY FUN. THEN TODAY.. WELL I HAVENT DONE ANYTHING. ITS SUNDAY. WHATS IT MATTER? I HAVE SOME HOMEWORK I WANT TO DO TONIGHT... BUT I DUNNO IF I WILL DO IT OR NOT. LOL ... UMM SO YAH. MY LIFE IS OKAY. I HAD A BLOW DOWN WITH MY BROTHER AND MY DAD AGAIN. YAY. IT ALWAYS HAS TO HAPPEN. I DONT CARE THOUGH. IM OUTTA HERE SOON. BUT YAH I DONT HAVE MUCH TO SAY. IM NOT IN SUCH A GOOD MOOD. TTYL.. jENNY |
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| Thursday night.. BORING!!! |
[Mar. 23rd, 2006|09:24 pm] |
Hola como estas? how is everyone doing this fine thursday evening? Im doing mighty fine! lol i guess. Everything has been going pretty good actually. i offically know now that i hate my father. For no reason at all, when i saw that my dad was home early today i got mad and upset. i think its his fault that i am depressed and on pills. i dont understand myself.. well guess what!!!??!!! i decided that im going to henry ford instead of michigan state. i cant afford to go to msu, and plus i dont want to leave michael and the kids. i love them very much. i cant beleive its already time to buy a prom dress and all that for my senoir year. omg.. crazy.. i had this really crazy dream the other night.. it was prom night and me and just about everyone i know was in my hotel room for a party after prom and stephanie showed up and i literally beat the hell out of her. i remember vivid details also. my dress was beautiful and i even looed beautiful!! weird. lol ... that never happens. but when i woke up the next morning my hands hurt and my heart was going just as fast as it could go with out stopping!! lol... crazyness!!! well well well.. tomorrow id friday. me and mike will hang out because i got a babysitter finally. i hate doing this, but i need at least one night a week out, ya know? well yah i guess everything is almost back to normal at school. i dont know if i want it to be though. oh yah and today in bioethics there was this really really cute sub. he was sooo quiet and laid back. i would of done him.. and i know any other person would of. but i think he might have been a little gay. oh well ive slept with a gay man before... lol im sure everyone knows who!! lol... but yes i hope everyone is doing well. be happy this week is almost over!! yay.. well its time for bed, but er comes on in 29 minutes also. mike's callin.. g2g i love everyone... :)
Good night!! i wish everyone a great night of sleep! |
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| weekend fun? OR NOT!!!!!!11 |
[Mar. 19th, 2006|09:38 pm] |
Well well well.. look chase no caps!!!! lol just kidding.
this weekend was pretty messed up. it started great. and i mean great but it then went to hell. friday i went to my aunts to house sit.. then mike came over. fun fun. we went to the mall then back home. i eventually went home to my house around 11. then on saturday gary, mellanie and joanna were supposed to come over to do a project but only mellanie came over. now im stuck writting a fucking paper. wonderful. im really really pissed at gary though. he didnt even fucking bother to call or anything. at least joanna told me she would be late. but i told he to forget about it. anyways. the rest of that day was a bore. and then on sunday i did nothing. i cleaned and went to my aunts to feed the cats and yah. now i sit here on my anniversary with michael alone. why? because hes an ass!!!! ahh... i cant say that, because hes really not. hes just a very busy person. i understand fully. but yes. now im sitting here at 9:45 pm getting ready to start my paper. wonderful huh? g2g ttyl |
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| i wish i was dead |
[Mar. 16th, 2006|08:05 pm] |
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WELL YES ITS THURSDAY NIGHT AND I HAVE A VERY BIG DECISION TO MAKE TODAY. I DIDNT GO TO SCHOOL TODAY BECAUSE I CANT HANDLE IT ANYMORE. I GOT UP FOR SCHOOL THIS MORNING AND I JUST COULDNT GO. I HATE THE IDEA OF PEOPLE TALKING SHIT ABOUT ME, AND IM TO THE POINT THAT I WILL GET INTO A PHYSICAL FIGHT WITH PEOPLE. I JUST GOT AN EMAIL FROM JENN AND SHE SAID THAT GARY APOLOGIZED TO HER. I SURELY HOPE GARY WILL APOLOGIZE TO ME, BUT I STILL WONT CARE. I CANT DEAL WITH PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT ME. AS PISSED AS I AM, ALL I CAN DO IS CRY.... I DONT KNOW IF IM GOING BACK TO SCHOOL AFTER THIS WEEK... IF I DO GO BACK I DONT KNOW IF IT WILL BE AT HURON. I CANT DEAL WITH THIS SHIT ANYMORE. IVE BEEN PUT ON PILLS AND I STILL CANT BE HAPPY. I DONT UNDERSTAND. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? I FEEL LIKE I HAVE NO ONE, EVEN THOUGH I KNOW I HAVE FRIENDS, AND FAMILY... I DONT KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON. I JUST WISH EVERYTHING WAS NORMAL. HEARING THAT KRISTINA IS TALKING ABOUT ME BEHIND MY BACK... WHO THE FUCK DOES SHE THINK SHE IS? I CANT HANDLE THAT AND I KNOW I CAN BEAT HER ASS. IF SHE DONT SHUT UP THATS WHERE ITS GOING TO GO. I DONT WANT THAT BECAUSE I WILL GET IN TROUBLE FOR IT, BUT I DONT CARE. ANYONE GOT ADVICE? IM GOING CRAZY.. :( |
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| wonderful wonderful... the world of school |
[Mar. 15th, 2006|09:37 pm] |
WELL TODAY WAS FUCKING WONDERFUL... PROBLEMS PROBLEMS PROBLEMS... THATS ALL I CAN SAY. I DONT EVEN CARE ANYMORE THOUGH. (LIKE I DID BEFORE? not)!!!!!! WELL I DONT GIVE A RATS ASS ABOUT ANYTHING ANYMORE. ON TUESDAY ME, RACHAEL, JACKIE, KATELYN AND KRISTI HAD A NICE CONVERSATION WITH DOMONIC ABOUT HIM AND GARY. NOTHING BAD AT ALL WAS SAID, BUT ANYWAYS... THERE WAS SOME REASON FOR CONCERN THAT GARY HAD BEEN LYING ABOUT THE WHOLE THING AND DOMONIC CONFIRMED IT WITH US. AND NOW GARY IS BEING A BITCH ABOUT THE FACT THAT WE WENT "BEHIND HIS BACK" AND TALKED TO DOMONIC. WELL OBVIOSULY THERE WAS A REASON THAT GARY DIDNT WANT US TO TALK TO DOM. SO YAH HES GIVING ME AND RACHEAL THIS BIG SILENT TREATMENT LIKE A LITTLE BITCH... TALKING ABOUT US BEHIND OUR BACKS NOW TRYING TO GET PEOPLE TO BE ON HIS SIDE.. ITS A A HUGE GAME. I PERSONALLY DONT KNOW WHAT I BELIEVE AND WHAT I DONT, I THINK THERE IS NEED FOR A DISCUSSION BETWEEN GARY DOM ME AND RACHAEL. WE WANT THE TRUTH. AND NO MORE BULLSHIT. BUT NOT UNTIL GARY GETS OVER HIS HISSY FIT WILL I EVEN CONSIDER TALKING TO HIS ASS. PERSONALLY ID RATHER NOT TALK TO HIM BECAUSE OF THIS. I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY HES ACTING LIKE THIS. BUT YAH GARY HAS PULLED KRISTINA INTO TALKING SHIT ABOUT ME, WHICH IS FINE. I DONT CARE. ITS FUNNY TO ME.. BUT ID HATE TO HAVE TO KICK SOMEONES ASS FOR TALKING SHIT ABOUT ME, OVER SOMETHING THEY WERENT EVEN INVOLVED IN.. YA KNOW? oh well im done with this bullshit.
other than that today went pretty good. any advice on this situation is needed... thanks. |
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| wonderful freakin day |
[Mar. 14th, 2006|08:52 pm] |
WELL TODAY WAS VERY INTERESTING. 1ST HOUR WENT BY GOOD, ME ERICKA AND CHASE TALKED ALL HOUR BUT WE STILL DID OUR WORK. I REALLY LOVE MY FRIENDS. IN 2ND HOUR... WELL WE WONT GO THERE JUST YET. IN 3RD HOUR WE HAD A TEST. IT WAS EASY. WE COULD USE ALL OUR NOTES LIKE USUAL SO IT WAS EASY... IN 4TH HOUR WE GOT MORE WORK, BUT I THINK I UNDERSTAND THIS... ITS COMING ALONG PRETTY GOOD. IN 5TH HOUR WE TOOK NOTES ON BIG FOOT. WONDERFUL HUH????? LOL I LOVE THAT CLASS THOUGH. IT HAS ALOT OF PEOPLE I KNOW IN IT, AND WE ALWAYS GET TO PLAY SOME UNO. LOL AND FINALLY IN 6TH HOUR WE TOOK A PRACTICE TEST FOR THE AP TEST. I REALLY DONT WANT TO TAKE THE REAL TEST. ITS A DAY AFTER MY BIRTHDAY!!! WHAT KIND OF CRAP IS THAT? OH WELL... LOL. THE REST OF MY DAY WENT BY PRETTY SLOW. I JUST CAME HOME, LAYED AROUND FOR LIKE 30 MINUTES THEN CLEANED MY HOUSE.. THEN MIKE CAME HOME AND YAH... NOW IM JUST SITTING HERE WRITTING ON THIS THING. ALWAYS FUN I GUESS. I GET ALOT OF MY ANGER OUT ON IT.
NOW TO THE GOOD PART. ME BITCHING AT THE WORLD... WELL ANYWAYS DO YOU EVER HAVE THAT ONE FRIEND WHOM YOU CANNOT BELIEVE? YOU HEAR MANY DIFFERENT THINGS FROM OTHER PEOPLE AND YOU JUST CANT DISTINGUISH WHAT IS TRUE OR NOT? I WANT SOOO HARD FOR THIS PERSON TO NOT GET MAD AT ME, BUT THERE IS ALOT OF PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT HIM, AND I JUST WANT THE TRUTH. I WOULDNT EVEN BE MAD IF EVERYTHING IVE HEARD FOR MONTHS WASNT TRUE. I JUST WANT THE FREAKIN TRUTH. ONE PERSON SAYS YES AND THE OTHER SAYS NO... AHHHH... I HATE DRAMA BUT I CANT SEEM TO GET AWAY FROM IT. ITS OK... SCHOOL IS ALMOST OVER.. THEN TO THE REAL WORLD JENNY GOES. LOL SOOO YES NOW I AM TALKING TO A FRIEND ABOUT THIS SITUATION WITH MY FRIEND AND I THINK IM JUST GOING TO COME OUT AND ASK MY FRIEND THE TRUTH... AHHH.... SOOO MUCH DRAMA WHAT IS NEXT? I CANNOT BELIEVE ITS ALREADY THE MIDDLE OF MARCH... GEEZE... :) I JUST WANT IT TO BE MAY 3RD THEN PROM THEN GRADUATION. I NEED A BREAK. :( SOO YES I AM SICK NOW.. GUESS HOW? I DONT KNOW ACTUALLY.. LOL MY THROAT HAS BEEN REALLY REALLY SORE FOR LIKE 4 DAYS AND MY HEAD HAS BEEN HURTTING AND YAH EVERYTHING POSSIBLE ACHES. :( I WONDER WHATS WRONG... LOL MAYBE I SHOULD GO TO THE DOCTOR... MAYBE NOT.... I WILL JUST DEAL WITH IT.
OH YEAH THE OTHER DAY I GOT MY PROM DRESS.. ITS BABY BLUE WITH BRIGHT BRIGHT SILVER SEAQUINS ON THE BOOB AREA AND GOING ON A SLANT DOWN THE FRONT. I ALSO GOT A GRIDDILIN OR WHATEVER ITS CALLED TO GO UNDER IT, SO ITS POOFY. YAY... IM SOOOO EXCITED. WELL THIS FRIDAY IS SADIES. I KINDA WANT TO GO BUT IN WAYS I DONT YOU KNOW? IM SCARED IM GOING TO PAY FOR THE TICKETS AND GET SHIRTS AND THEN NO ONE WILL BE THERE. :( I JUST WISH I KNEW WHO ALL WAS GOING TO BE THERE. PROM WONT MATTER. I KNOW EVERYONE WHO CAN GO, WILL GO.. :) BUT YES I GUESS I SHOULD END THIS. IM SURE NO ONE READ ALL OF THIS BULLSHIT. LOL :) GOOD NIGHT ALL... ADIOS. :) |
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| monday night |
[Mar. 6th, 2006|09:07 pm] |
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WELL WELL WELL ISNT THIS FIRMILIAR? IM SITTING HERE ON A FRIDAY NIGHT DOING NOTHING WITH MYSELD EXCEPT WISHING I WAS DEAD. SCHOOL WENT OKAY I GUESS. NOTHING BIG HAPPENED. I FOUND OUT TODAY THAT TO BE HAPPY IN SCHOOL I HAVE TO POP SOME PILLS TO MAKE ME LESS ANGRY. WONDERFUL HUH? ME AND MICHAEL ARE GREAT. I LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY HEART. HES DEFINITELY THE ONE FOR ME. SADIES IS ON THE 17TH AND I REALLY HOPE WE CAN GET A BABYSITTER, SO ME AND HIM CAN GO. IT WILL BE THE FIRST DANCE I GO TOO WITH SOMEONE THIS YEAR. YAY.... IVE ALWAYS HAD A DATE FOR DANCES THROUGHOUT HIGH SCHOOL, I DONT UNDERSTAND. WELL TODAY I WENT TO THE DOCTORS. I GOT TESTED FOR EVERYTHING YOU CAN THINK OF. EVRYTHING SHOULD BE OKAY, BUT I FIGURED ID GET TESTED EVERY FEW MONTHS SINCE IVE STARTED HAVING SEX MORE AND WITHOUT CONDOMS. LOL GOOD INFORMATION HUH? LOL... UMM OH YAH TODAY I WAS AT MEIJER'S ACTUALLY LIKE 20 MINUTES AGO AND I SAW THIS KID AND HIS BROTHERS AND SISTERS AND MOM STANDING BY THE SECURITY PEOPLE SO I GOT NOSIEY, I WAS LISTENING AND THEN I SAW THE BABIES HEAD. HE FELL OUT OF A SHOPPING CART AND HIT HIS HEAD ON THE CONCRETE FLOOR. HIS HEAD WAS HUGE AND SWALLON AND BLACK AND BLUE AND PURPLE. IT WAS SCARY. AND HE KEPT FALLING ASLEEP. I WANTED TO GRAB HIM AND RUN TO THE HOSPITAL. ME NOW BEING A PARENT I WAS LIKE AHH MOTHERLY INSTINCT KICKING IN... AHHHH. LOL BUT THE MOM DIDNT WANT TO TAKE THE BABY TO THE HOSPITAL BECAUSE SHE DIDNT HAVE INSURANCE. BUT THANK GOD THE PEOPLE AT MEIJER'S AND THANK GOD FOR THE emt THAT WAS THERE, THEY MADE HER ( BY THE WAY, THE emt WAS GORGOUS) ... LOL BUT YAH. IT WAS TOTALLY BAD. I FELT SOOO BAD, I WANTED TO GRAB THE BABY AND RUN TO THE HOSPITAL. LOL FUNNY HUH? RUN? ME? HAHA!!!!! NAW IT WAS PRETTY SAD. BUT I STUCK AROUND TILL I SAW THE BABY GET INTO THE AMBULANCE. I WANTED TO KILL THE MOTHER THOUGH. BUT ANYWAYS... YAH I CANT WAIT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL TOMORROW. ACTUALLY ID RATHER DIE. LOL I CANT STAND THE PEOPLE THERE ANYMORE. THE DOCTOR HAS ME ON DEPRESSION PILLS TO KEEP ME CALM. WEIRD HUH? ME CRAZY? LOL UNHEARD OF. not!!!! BUT YES. I CANT BELIEVE HOW FAST EVERYTHING IS MOVING THIS YEAR.. IM GRADUATING IN LIKE 94 DAYS. WHERE DID MY LIFE GO? IM SOOO EXCITED ABOUT GETTING OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL. YAY!!!! LOL WELL I GUESS IM GOING TO QUIT BLABBING. I LOVE EVERYONE AND I LOVE HOW EVERYONE ACTS. I HATE EVERYONE ACTUALLY. NOT EVERYONE JUST MOST THE PEOPLE. WELL IM SITTING HERE IN MY CMPUTER ROOM, AND I HEAR MY BROTHER BITCHING AT MY PARENTS FOR GIVING ME LUNCH MONEY. I FUCKING HATE MY BROTHER. I THINK IF I COULD KILL ANYONE IN THE WORLD I WOULD HAVE TO START WITH HIM. I CANNOT STAND HIS GOOD FOR NOTHING, DRUGY ASS. IM SICK AND TIRED OF MY LIFE WITH HIM IN IT. HE DOES NOTHING WITH HIMSELF EXCEPT PLAY GAMES, HE WONT GET A JOB, HE BEATS WOMEN. HE DOES DRUGS... WHAT THE FUCK IS HE ON THIS EARTH FOR? OH WELL IF I JINX MYSELF. I HOPE I DIE.!! GOD I NEED MORE PILLS. IM GETTING PISSED AGAIN. DONT YOU LOVE ME WHEN IM OFF MY MEDICATION? I HAVENT BEEN OFF OF THEM IN LIKE 10 MONTHS TILL RECENTLY. I MESSED UP MY PATTERN OR WHATEVER, SO NOW MY BODY IS GOING CRAZY. YAY. LOL IM DONE BITCHING. I LOVE YOU MELL. I KNOW YOUR THE ONLY ONE WHOSE GOING TO READ THIS. LOL AIDOS!! :) |
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| WELL WELL WELL |
[Mar. 5th, 2006|05:58 pm] |
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SO YES TODAY IS SUNDAY AND I HAVENT WROTE ON HERE IN A LONG TIME. I JUST DONT SEE THE POST ANYMORE YA KNOW? NO ONE ON HERE REALLY CARES. LOL OH WELL. SO YES SCHOOL THIS PAST WEEK WASNT BAD. JUST KIND OF SLOW. I REALLY HATE GOING THERE. I WISH I DIDNT HAVE TOO. OH WELL. ME AND MICHAEL ARE DOING GOOD. WE HAD A BIT OF A SCARE A FEW DAYS AGO BUT EVERYTHING IS GOING GOOD NOW. LAST NIGHT ME MICHAEL AND AUBREY WENT TO HAL'S POOL HALL AND PLAYED DARTS, POOL AND AIR HOCKEY. I SUCK AT ALL OF THERE BUT THATS OKAY. LOL. I CANT BELIEVE THERE IS ONLY 58 DAYS TILL MY BIRTHDAY. THATS CRAZY. I FEEL LIKE IM GETTING OLD. LOL . IM GOING TO BE 18. OH GOD.. LOL THAT SEEMS SOOO OLD. WELL YEAH. IM DEFINITELY READY TO MOVE OUT OF MY HOUSE. AND GET MY OWN PLACE WITH MICHAEL AND THE BABY. LOL... SOUNDS FUN HUH? NOT REALLY. I JUST CAT DEAL WITH ALOT OF THE STRESS THAT GOES ON HERE, ITS JUST TOO MUCH SOMETIMES. WELL YAH. THERES A CERTAIN PERSON I KNOW THAT IM GETTING REALLY TIRED OF. ITS JUST bounch OF BULLSHIT EVERY DAY. I DONT UNDERSTAND. I THINK ITS A BIG CALL FOR ATTENTION. OH WELL. NO ONE TAKES MY ADVICE ANYMORE AND I PERSONALLY THINK THEY SHOULD. I HAVE ALOT MORE KNOWLEDGE ON MANY THINGS THEN HALF MY FRIENDS DO, BUT THATS THERE PROBLEM NOT MINE. I DO PERSONALLY LOVE MYSELF. I CANNOT BELEIVE HOW MUCH IVE OPENED UP THIS YEAR TO MYSELF. LOL WEIRD BUT YAH I UNDERSTAND. WELL FRIDAY IN SPANISH GARY SNAPPED. IT WAS HILLARIOUS. I JUST SAT THERE LISTENING BCUZ I WAS TOTALLY AGAINST EVERYTHING GARY WAS SAYING. HE FREAKED OUT BECAUSE ERICKA, ME AND CHASE WERE HAVING A VERY GOOD CHAT ON RELIGION AND YAH GARY THINKS HE KNOWS EVERYTHING SO HE BUDDED IN FROM NOT BEING IN OUR CONVERSATION AND HAD TO CAUSE A CONTAVERSEY. I HATE IT. I DONT GIVE A RATS ASS WHO I OFFEND TALKING ABOUT RELIGION, OR ANYTHING . I DONT KNOW HOW MUCH I BELIEVE IN ANYMORE JUST BECAUSE OF THE SHIT I SEE. THIS WHOLE ENTRY IS ME BITCHING BUT I DONT CARE. I CANT JUST HOLD IT ALL IN. LOL MAYBE I CAN, BUT I DONT WANT TOO. SO YAH THE FIGHT WITH GARY AND ALL OF US IN SPANISH IS GOING TO CAUSE GARY MORE PROBLEMS IN THAT CLASS. NOW THE ONLY PERSON HE HAS IN OUR PART OF THE CLASS, OR THE WHOLE ROOM IS LIKE JARRED AND SORDA ME. I MEAN I LOVE GARY AND ALL BUT HE JUST NEEDS TO KNOW WHEN TO KEEP HIS MOUTH SHUT, AND NOT SAY ANYTHING. IN THE THING IN CLASS. HE HAD TO ROOM TO BUD IN OUR CHAT AND START A FIGHT WITH ALL OF US. WE DONT GIVE A SHIT WHAT HE BELEIVES IN AND PERSONALLY I WILL TALK ABOUT WHAT EVER THE FUCK I WANT TOO, SHIT RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIM. AND THEN HE COMPLAINED TO PEOPLE ALL DAY LONG ABOUT IT, THINKING THE PEOPLE WOULD CARE. WRONG. LOL , OH WELL I GUESS THATS JUST THE STUPIDITY OF THE PEOPLE IN HURON. I WISH MOST THE DAMN PEOPLE IN THE FUCKING SCHOOL WOULD GROW UP. THERES ALOT OF WONDERFUL PEOPLE BUT THERES JUST THOSE SOME PEOPLE. AND THE WHOLE SCHOOL IS BEING OVER RUN BY BLACKS. ITS REALLY STARTING TO GET TO ME. I MOVED TO FREAKING HURON TO GET HELL AWAY FROM THEM BUT THEY ARE FOLLOWING ME HERE IT SEEMS. THERE ARE THESE 2 BLACK GUYS IN SCHOOL. THEY ARE NEW, AND I FEEL THREATENED EVERYTIME IM IN THE SAME HALLWAY AS THEM. PLEASE DONT COMMENT ME ON THIS PART. NO ONE CAN CHANGE ME, AND YOU SHOULD NOT TRY BCAUSE I WONT CHANGE FOR ANYONE AND YOU WILL LOSE ME AS A FRIEND. I CANT HELP HOW I WAS BROUGHT UP. BUT YES I THINK IM DOING BITCHING. PEACE. |
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| Sunday |
[Feb. 12th, 2006|05:13 pm] |
HOWS EVERYONE DOING ON THIS CRAPPY SUNDAY NIGHT? HOPE EVERYONE IS GOOD, AND BEING SAFE. HOW WAS EVERYONE'S WEEKEND? MINE WAS GREAT UNTIL TODAY. ON FRIDAY NIGHT ME AND MICHAEL WENT TO A HOTEL AND WE SORDA CELEBRATED VALENTINES DAY. I LOVE THAT BOY WITH ALL MY HEART. THEN ON SATURDAY I WENT TO A HUGE PARTY WITH JJ, GOT DRUNK AND HAD A BLAST. I MISS MICHAEL THOUGH. I HAVENT TALKED TO HIM TODAY. I TRIED ONLINE, BUT NO SUCCESS. I HOPE HE IS OKAY. IM SURE HES TIRED SINCE HE WORKED THIS MORNING. SOO YES, SCHOOL TOMORROW MORNING, I DONT WANT TO GO, BUT I KNOW AT THE END OF THIS WEEK, I GET A WEEK OFF, YAY..
I HAVE A DILLEMA, I LOVE MICHAEL SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH, AND HE KNOWS THAT, BUT I FEEL THAT I DONT SHOW HIM THAT I LOVE HIM ENOUGH, AND WHEN I DO SHOW HIM, I ALWAYS THINK THAT HES GOING TO GET MAD AT ME FOR BEING CLINGY. I JUST DONT WANT TO LOSE HIM. HES THE BEST THING THAT COULD EVER HAPPEN. ME AND HIM HAVE TALKED ABOUT MOVING IN TOGETHER HERE SOON, AND HAVING A CHILD. I REALLY WISH THAT WOULD HAPPEN NOW. THERES A CHANCE THAT I COULD BE PREGNANT FROM THIS PAST WEEKEND, BUT I DONT EVEN CARE. WE HAD SEX WITHOUT A CONDOM, AND HE PULLED OUT, BUT I KNOW THAT HE DIDNT GET TOTALLY OUT IN TIME. I DONT CARE. THATS WHY I STOPPED MY BIRTH CONTROL. :) OH WELL I GUESS I SHOULD GO. PLEASE SOMEONE, ANYONE WHO READS THIS COMMENT ME :) THANKS AND HAVE A WONDERFUL SUNDAY NIGHT,
I lOvE mIcHaEl!!!!!! jENNIFER |
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